But a Ghost

For long we'd lain in lovers' arms,
But I within this dark'ning calm,
Could not abide to lay here longer,
Routine incurring naught but anger,
The rift between us growing stronger,
'Til life has lost its charm.

And on the night we did depart,
The gentle beating of our hearts
Did falter and fall short in silence,
And I in bittersweet compliance
Broke our three year long alliance
So we could draw apart.

Yet you said, you swore forever,
That in truth we would not sever
All relations we had shared,
That as friends we would stay paired,
Because for me you said you cared,
And that I doubted never.

Yet in time you drew away,
And never will another day
Come that we might meet again,
Or walk beneath the pouring rain,
For from seeing you I must refrain,
Since we parted ways.

As your memory of me's lost,
I find to you I must accost:
Remember once that you were mine,
When in that long-forgotten time,
We spoke those whispers so sublime,
When Fate our paths did cross.

And of your hand I held so dear,
I must not touch, must not go near,
And all the rights have come unstuck:
Your heartstrings I no longer pluck,
And from your sight I have been struck,
And I you do not see.

And truths I must with waxing woe
Come against my will to know.
And now I find I don't exist,
That you and I have never kissed,
And I of course would not be missed,
By mem'ries you let go.

And wherever would we go?
Now there's no place where no one knows…
And in the room where I grew cold,
In which those passions once took hold,
That darkened space where I grew old,
Must I now forego.

And your door I find is closed,
And your love in deep repose,
Oh I am just a ghost,
Oh I am just a ghost.